Songs...

I started out deciding by putting my iPod on shuffle - even though it always is. I skipped 16 songs out of 770 and already, I found the song that I want to talk about. Sure there may be one that I find later on while listening, but I'll get to that some other time.

Song: Through Heaven's Eyes

Artist: Brian Stokes

Album: Prince of Egypt 

His voice just gives me chills. There are actually 2 versions though; the ones that's in the movie and the one that I bought from iTunes. 

Version 1: In the movie.

Version 2 (I much prefer this one): Brian Stokes with The Mormon Tabernacle Choir

The fact that it has an orchestra is already great - those also give me chills.

Lyrics with analysis:

A single thread in a tapestry
Through its color brightly shine
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the grand design 

Just like we were talking about in class earlier in the year. Are you a significant being in this sea of billions? Why yes, yes you are. You are the single thread in the tapestry of the world. It's not easy to see your own purpose in life, and you may never, it still doesn't mean you're not important.


And the stone that sits on the very top
Of the mountain's mighty face
Does it think it's more important
Than the stones that form the base?
I take this as talking to the political leaders of the world down to the higher classes that look down on the others. Do they think they're more important than those who are actually supporting them as a base? Most, if not all, of them couldn't have gotten to where they are if there weren't people who gave them a push.

So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life 

This is where it gets a little religious, but I still appreciate this verse. Other than the POSSIBILITY that introspection is a skill that will be acquired, there are the eyes of the different gods. I can't say too much about these lines, other than the fact that they do center around God and looking at your worth through his eyes, and the heavens' eyes. 

Look at your life through heaven's eyes
Lai-la-lai...

A lake of gold in the desert sand
Is less than a cool fresh spring
And to one lost sheep, a shepherd boy
Is greater than the richest king
If a man lose ev'rything he owns
Has he truly lost his worth?
Or is it the beginning
Of a new and brighter birth?
The first bit a little self-explanatory; if you're in a dessert would you want a lake of gold (that you can't drink...) or a cool fresh spring? 
If you were a lost sheep (religious or not), do you want to meet the richest king, or the shepherd who you've known for all your life, the one who will lead you in the right direction. This one could be a little tricky.
The last bit makes me think of Siddhartha. He had just about everything when he was a merchant and with Kamala, but when he gave it all up, did he lose his worth or did he actually gain more by starting over? 

So how do you measure the worth of a man
In wealth or strength or size?
In how much he gained or how much he gave?
The answer will come
The answer will come to him who tries
To look at his life through heaven's eyes
What do you think? Is what you're really worth based on your monetary value? Strength? Size? How much you've gotten or how much you gave? 
We all have our own answer to this question.


And that's why we share all we have with you
Though there's little to be found
When all you've got is nothing
There's a lot to go around
True story. The less you've had in life, the more you gain seems like a lot (I know that's not always true, but I can't find the words to put it in right now). 


No life can escape being blown about
By the winds of change and chance
And though you never know all the steps
You must learn to join the dance
You must learn to join the dance
Lai-la-lai...
Everyone faces change and choices they have to make, you may never know what the future holds and what paths to take, but you have to learn to flow with it. You have to learn to deal with it or else you'll drown.


So how do you judge what a man is worth
By what he builds or buys?
You can never see with your eyes on earth
Look through heaven's eyes
Look at your life
Look at your life
Look at your life through heaven's eyes
Money/power again here. But also the end of a very good song.

I'm not religious but this has to be one of my favorite soundtrack albums. Not only are the singing voices amazing, but the animation. I suppose it's a really good movie if you don't know the original story of Moses. It's pretty close to it, just that of course the story is extensive and this is an animated movie made for theaters - it's not going to be as long. I would suggest watching the movie if you aren't against Egyptians and Hebrews...
To me the songs and the movie itself are inspiring, it needn't be in a religious way.

If you didn't like the song...well...go listen to the radio or something. I don't even know what's on the radio anymore.

The feeling of being...

a·lone 

/əˈlōn/

Adjective

1. Having no one else present; on one's own.

2. Without others' help or participation; single-handed.

Synonyms

lone - single - lonely - lonesome - sole - solitary

This is a word I've been able to describe myself in many scenarios. There are certain aspects of my home life that I won't discuss but, in turn, affect me to the extent of being alone.

From a good blog. 

There is one certain time where I've actually been alone though. I had the house to myself and it was around nine in the morning. I didn't want to go downstairs, thinking my mother was there. So I stayed in my bed, with the clock turned around and the t.v. off. In my reality, to be alone, you must let time go; time can be company, whether good or bad. As I said, it was already noon, and I wasn't tired of course. However, once you lose sense of time, people, and the outside distractions, confined to a room, what else is there in life? This is where Mersault had the right idea in sleeping. I just slept and slept and slept. You don't have to be tired to sleep, I know that and I've known that for quite some time. Being driven to either parent's house, I've learned to sleep just to pass the time. 

Being alone isn't a bad thing though. Maybe if you have health problems or something. Even then, without people you have time to think about yourself in your own view. While you're with other people you usually only shape yourself to who you want people to see you as instead of who you really are. Of course, who you really are may be what you want people to see you as, except you try a little too much sometimes, thus making it fake. With others, be it co-workers or friends, etc., you put on a psychological act. Just analyze the way you act towards your parents, your friends and your superiors at work. You're just as much of an actor, just one in real life, rather than entertainment for others. 

Have time to think about yourself. Have time to sleep when you're not sleepy. Have time to lay in bed and just think. Have time to be alone.